It's not the cold, it's not the darkness, it's not the distance ... yet.
I know that i am not the only one.
We all have our own demons to fight at any point on our lives. However those change over time (at least in my case) and I am battling now the fear to the unknown. I never thought about it that much until now.
I want to make sure that I am as well prepared as I can be, and I know I will be.
Would that be enough?
That is unknown to me and that is an issue.
The good thing is that there is only one way to know and that is trying and that is what I am doing.
Slowly I am regaining my usual self confidence (in the water) and every time I am there with Kendra or Katie or like last Saturday with my wonderful masters swimmers and friends from the Guelph Marlins, Arlene Jane and Dave I am feeling with better spirits.
Does not make it easier ( I still need to work on my food, sleep, flexibiity and core muscles) but time goes faster and that is a huge help.
The good thing is that every little thing happening now towards or around the swim makes me feel that the whole team is on the right direction and everyone is getting more and more into it.
47 days left and counting.